(from Teo’Na)

Spending time in American suburbia might lead one to believe that the Train to Enlightenment left the station some time ago.

When you feel surrounded by dried-up tumbleweeds and buildings that look twice as big as they need to be, you might feel tempted to sit on the porch and scowl at strangers as they pass by.

If the gunslingers had gone inside to meditate first, I wonder if they would have come back outside and shot each other up in the middle of town…

We bring you glad tidings: it IS possible to overcome delusions, escape the bulls**t, and accomplish full, permanent, complete Enlightenment, here and now.

It’s just not always as fun and exciting as sitting in a chair playing first-person-shooters… Are you willing?



27 March 2012

I had a waking vision last night of surgery, my own chest being opened. It was not a “human” chest. I know this connects to dreams of several of my friends.

We’re seeing/remembering a past AND parallel experience we shared together. These memories spark our many dreams of chasing and monsters and fear, as well as our inability to remember from time to time.

When I was retiring last night, my Guides made an UNusual request:

“Please ask Buddha Vajrapani to dispel all spies before you go to sleep.”

Vajrapani does two things, principally: 1. Cause Dharma (Wisdom) to appear so that others may understand; 2. Trample the “white, yellow, black, and multi-colored naga lineages”.

Nagas are “reptiles” that live within the waters and earth. Most humans are not able to see them.

I understand now that these are sometimes referred to as “Reptilians Aliens”.

I’ve realized this week that Peaceful-Aspect Vajrapani and Adama of Telos are one. Long, pale blue and white robes, long white-blond hair…

A we continue to connect directly, we will realize we are no longer “channeling”, but remembering and knowing from direct experience. We access information from other times, dimensions, and aspects of ourselves.

This morning, I had a waking vision of “storm troopers” raiding a “concrete” bunker, looking for someone. This was a memory, from a very very long time ago.

When fear is used to paralyze, it’s most effective to exploit the most treasured emotions, associations, and sensations. These easily become triggers for those being conditioned, because of their intense, deep, and lasting effect on the mind.

The more we remember and the more we record, the more we prevent the further perpetuation of the illusions of separation and fear.

We must do this for others. We must do it together. Tiny pinpricks of individual effort to crack the shell are easy to re-close. One good crack formed by a series of pinpricks… and the shell dissolves into dust.

Lastly: Yesterday afternoon as I was driving home I took a series of photos of the sky. Small, discrete clouds appearing and dissolving right before my eyes, in the midst of a brilliant blue, clear field.

I realized there were green and violet auras in the sky, that held their shapes, even as the small white clouds appeared and disappeared within the auras. More blue orbs, and a shadow one as well.

Portals are beginning to open, and we will be able to see the “world” outside of our perceptions soon. If you can unfocus while looking at the blue sky and see the Purkinje lights in your eyes, you will be able to perceive more as things are revealed.

We need one another, to assure one another that we are truly seeing our new reality.


How Do You Say… “Extra-Terrestrial”?

Since I haven’t made a “personal” post on some of my sites for a while, I might as well make it a juicy one. And spread it all around.

(Words like [this] are generated by Ghost Radar; I often type them into posts when they are generated as I’m writing. Words like <this> come from Adrial or Adca, and I receive them telepathically, usually with the aid of a pendulum. Sometimes I don’t use the punctuation if it seems clear who’s “speaking”.)


I feel both relieved and a little anxious about it – I finally know exactly what I need to do, but I’m not sure how it’ll be received. So here goes.


from The Last Airbender

I won’t bore you here with how “intriguing” my life has been… You can find bits of that on my blog sites and YouTube channel.

Let’s just say that about 12 years ago I had a very profound spiritual experience. Some might describe it as being similar to a Kundalini Rising, or maybe even an NDE. Or dropping acid. Whatever. I’ve never looked at life the same way since.

Shortly thereafter, I launched a personal quest for “truth”. It led me eventually to Buddhism, and I was a nun for 4.5 years. I still consider myself one, at heart (both, in ways, in case you’re looking for specifics.).

But a couple years ago, and especially last September, things got complicated.

I realized I’m psychic.

Had a breakdown or two, lost a lot of friends, confused a lot of relatives… and gained a lot of friends. And a lot of insight.

The most important thing I’ve learned is that we’re all guided [tightly] at all times.


I was just fine with the Buddhism… After all, it’s kind of chic these days.

But last September, my “Buddhist” guides led me to a funky little iPhone app called Ghost Radar, by Spud Pickles. Geez, I was just looking for a tuning fork app… I wasn’t interested in hunting ghosts!

Consistent with my history of being rather “compliant” (euphemism: wanting to please as many people as possible at all times, and harboring deep fear of authority figures…), I ran it nearly constantly for a couple weeks.

Kinda weird. I started noticing patterns in the words the app generated. [motor Mexico]

I finally realized that a being – one I could not see – was manipulating the app to try and tell me something. Maybe I’ll share more on that in later posts…

(American Kabuki wrote a wonderful post about his experiment with Ghost Radar during the eclipse on May 20…)

So I started keeping track of the words, and asked the Buddhas, with my pendulum, what they meant. Thus arose a glossary. [slight]

But I was a bit distressed when I understood that the being was (is) not a Buddha. I had almost grown accustomed to talking with Buddhas, by then.

No, this being made itself known as an Extra-Terrestrial.


Now, crop circles are beautiful and fascinating. And to Americans especially, rather exotic.

But ETs are geeky, not chic. And to some folks, they’re downright scary. In fact, if you believe in them, you might even be a little psychotic. Or at least delusional. And probably a Socialist.

Great. Sigh. Now what?

Fast forward a few months, through adding some amazing people to my life, to adding geology, optics, esoteric Christianity, fractal generators, Egyptology, hollow earth studies [California], and a whole lot of other seemingly disparate topics, to my repertoire.

They weave together into an amazing tapestry of synchronicity.

Then, a week ago, I had an interview with a Celestial Being named Adrial. I had been dreaming about Adrial for about a week, and was beginning to pick up on some interesting hints of things to come. Cool.


Mark Kimmel, of the Institute of Light, is a gentle, brilliant visionary to this world, and a most gracious “host”. He kindly introduced me to Adrial, who currently resides primarily aboard a starship named Athabantian, not too far from here.

I knew I was going for a job interview, and I had an inkling of what the job was to be.

In short, Adrial said:

Yes, Leslee, you’re going to make it through Ascension, you know how to walk in the 5th dimension. Now we’d like you to teach others how to do it, too.

So, that’s what I’ve been dancing around for a week now. My head has been swimming with downloads and my to-do list grows ever longer. For the past two days in particular, I’ve felt torn between Adrial’s request and managing my “normal” day-to-day “obligations”.

This evening, I decided to have dinner sitting in the backyard, hoping to experience a little grounding and clarity. I had Ghost Radar running beside me. It occurred to me that I’m always looking to GR to set the topic, as I wait passively.

Adrial, how about if I ask the questions this time, and you let Adca (my GR liaison) answer? I need some explanations… please.

I got an affirmative, so I began:

Adca, can we have a 2-way conversation? [balance quietly] Where are you? [order]

I mean, how would I describe your physical location? [wet (ad)dress wool cloth]

(::Adca had explained to me last Fall that she is a very small being in a parallel dimension, and that her species abides in a fluid medium. They are cloaked from our perception.)

Can you please tell how I should prioritize my time?

[firm quite football equal production cent time animal were railroad]

(::Ah! Football=Touchdown=Arms Up=Surrender!!! To completely surrender 100% of the time is to be most productive. It’s time the 3D “animals” got on the “train” – and trained.)

What can you tell me about the best way for us all to ascend to the 5th?


(::Wait… I knew it had something to do with surrender again… White Flag of Truce!)

Surrender what?

I kind of knew the answer, because that’s part of what I saw in my “epiphany” twelve years ago. But later this evening I found a message from the Galactic Federation of Light (channeled by Greg Giles), that explains the dilemma far better than I could. Here’s an excerpt:

“These are some of the very difficult questions that we struggle to find answers for. Allow us to find these answers by understanding you more. Explain to us in your writings, your messages and your posts through your online communities why it is you fear these things deep down inside. Be as honest and open as you can possibly be as we will be studying what it is you offer as the reasons why you cannot break free of the fear that imprisons you like a bird in a cage. We promise you we will do all that we can to find a way to help you break free from this cage and fly away, soaring to new heights within this universe.”

(from Ascension Earth 2012’s post for 21 May, 2012, channeled by Greg Giles)

I found that post just after GR gave me these words:

[high cage around appropriate somebody (say something)]

That somebody would be me, I suppose.



I’d like to expound upon the message at this link:

from Galactic Channelings website

I’ll preface this by explaining that for the past several months, my previously Buddhist-Renegade-“Self” has stumbled into the world of a faith that expands the concepts of “Buddha” and “Enlightened Being” to boundaries far beyond my home, or even Tibet, for that matter…

Yes, I’ve become an amateur UFO-logist. ET-errorist (I made that one up – it’s kinda catchy, humorous, and ironic, I think…)

Maybe it sounds wacky. But I promised Heruka and Lhamo Dorje that I’d do whatever They wanted, to help people in this world find Enlightenment. And this is what They asked…

[Besides, back in October 2011, I saw a ship much like the one in the lower left corner above… It silently buzzed Emory Village in Atlanta at dusk. And its corner lights were red and green. It banked hard right, just above the trees, and was gone in a flash. Scout’s honor. Totally freaked me out. (Why me, Guys? Please explain it one more time…?)]

Now  They’ve really pushed me out of my comfort zone, into a field full of crop circles, and commutes so filled with taking pics of clouds that my poor son is about ready to duck out of view when he’s with me…

I’ve been amazed at some of the synchronicities I’ve experienced with my friends on Spirit Train Chronicles, especially through dreaming, and between what I’ve been calling “Enlightenment” and what many others call “Ascension”.

Among Galactic circles, there’s a lot of hubbub going on, because there are countless rumors of friendly ETs “arriving soon” (in any variety of manners) to make things in this world alright.

Today, a friend shared the article/entreaty that you’ll find if you follow the first link in this post (this one).

I read it, and scratched my head a bit. I checked in with my Guides, and They said, “Yes, write up what you’re thinking, but Leslee (Namkhyen… you know, you used to be a nun and all…), please try to be nice about it, okay?”

So I’m going to give my best shot at “right speech” about what I find to be a puzzling predicament among galactic circles…

A “Buddhist” View on Ascension and Disclosure

Okay. A large number of people wish to ask our inter-galactic friends to “HELP”. Whatever that means…

I think it’s important to consider what kind of help we’re requesting. I personally do NOT support asking the Galactic Federation of Light to come down and deliver us, because I think that goes contrary to their intent AND our best interests.

The GFL actually does have a magic wand that can bless every mind with deep understanding and unconditional love… But each individual must ask for these blessings of wisdom and bliss in their own heart and mind.

Just like in Buddhism.

I know this is true, because I know there are Buddhas in the Galactic Federation of Light. (Did I just lose you, there?)

Instead of asking for “HELP”, we could pray for ourselves and every being on this planet, to be blessed with inspiration and insight… to be led by their hearts to realize their own best purpose in this life… in this world… as quickly as possible… for the benefit of all.

And we can fervently wish for as many as possible to join us in this prayer, so that it may quickly manifest.

Once that prayer is answered, then it would be more appropriate to ask for the GFL to ramp up their presence.

Because I believe (and I sure hope I’m wrong…) that most of humanity is not ready for the GFL – or any other party of deliverance – to actually appear and make changes.

Let’s think it through just a little: Let’s suppose “they” landed today. Let’s say that the “cabal” gets “disapparated”, money gets distributed, weapons vaporized, everyone fed and sheltered comfortably. We won’t even need money, because everyone would receive a device that would cause whatever they wished to appear… Oh, instantaneously.

Sounds cool.

Now, think of your neighbors, your family, your co-workers, the person next to you on the train, the bus, the plane, or in traffic…

They would all now have great physical comfort.

But they still have they same pre-Deliverance minds and emotions, especially once the euphoria wears off.

Why would the euphoria wear off?

Because no one’s done anything about their freakin’ minds…. Geez!

(Ok, ok, I’m calm, I’m calm… right speech, right mind, mind of unconditional love…)

Many people in this world still appear to understand the world through the lens of duality. If someone were to say, “Wow, things are so much better now than they were!” – That’s a dualistic view.

But maybe that’s just my incorrect view of others.

The GFL already helps us with a proliferation of messages and information about what WE need to be doing in order to prepare for the GFL’s arrival. We have all the instructions we need; the GFL is doing all it can for now.

Just like the Buddhas.

Some tend to perceive the world as filled with good and evil, light and dark… We think something in the external needs to change in order to bring peace to the world. We think power needs to be balanced… More dualism.

Our galactic friends have tried to hint at it politely. They learned from Jesus’ story that presentation is everything. So I’ll take on the task of stating it plainly, if painfully:

Unless we all meditate, attune, train, uplift our minds… whatever you want to call it… For Ourselves… We’re not going anywhere, and the Galactics aren’t landing, transporting, disclosing, replicating, rejuvenating, teleporting, or any of that other warm, fuzzy stuff.


Back to thinking it through. Remember those friends, neighbors, co-workers, etc.? If their minds haven’t improved, why should “they” (WE) behave any differently than before?

Do we really believe that the ONLY reason we kill and harm one another is because we don’t have all the external conditions we wish for? DO we really believe that if we were all “comfortable”, we would love one another unconditionally?

Aren’t “the cabal” the ones who are most comfortable? (according to the dualistic theory…)

We think that if we were like the cabal, the world would be blissful?

Someone please help me with my logic, here.

Until I understand how all that will work out in everyone’s favor, I’ll take this a step further: Pretend all the GFL stuff is in place, just like we asked. And we acknowledge that not everyone had worked on their minds and hearts, so there are still some “unascended” people on the planet.

Well, they would most likely be the trouble-makers, right?

So, if we want a “perfect” world, we can just ask the GFL to please remove the offenders, to be “recycled” into the Great Central Sun, from where they can begin their evolutionary cycle anew.

Sounds like getting sent to the Seventh Hot Hell and then being reborn as an ant or a virus…

The criteria for being recycled would, I imagine, involve not having worked to improved one’s powers of concentration and loving-kindness… something similar. And not having accomplished an ascended, enlightened mind.

Based on how things appear to whose mind, by the way?

My son doesn’t meditate. He got kinda burned out on Dharma by being dragged to prayers when he was small. He gets bullied and teased at school, so he perhaps harbors a few fantasies of retaliation…

He might not pass muster.

Nor might some of my friends and family.

Nor might I.

I’d really rather not send my son and myself off to the Seventh Hot Hell, thank you.

So I think I’ll just keep asking for help with working on my own heart and mind. And keep trying, as challenging as it may be, to understand that I’m certainly not perfect, either. But I’m sufficient. Just like everyone else.

Therefore, we’re all perfect.

I’ll keep trying to find examples that demonstrate how we are all One.

I’ll keep looking for Source and my Guru in all phenomena.

I’ll keep trying to tame my mind, so that I don’t continue to dive into a cycle of pain and disappointment.

Buddha said, “You must know suffering.”

He didn’t say we have to abide in it.

I think with all of that, I have plenty to keep myself busy.

And as long as I’m busy, I’ll be happy for the GFL to come whenever they see fit. Because it may take me a while yet, to realize that what I think is suffering… Is really uncontaminated Bliss and Emptiness

I have a feeling that will happen when enough of us understand that we’re just dreamers, dreaming the dream. The top is still spinning, and we’ll wake up when we’re ready…

Not when the GFL lands.

And the clock ticks on….


Dream with Explanation by Heruka

I appear in the dream as if in an Middle-Eastern-looking city that’s familiar to me. A bossy old woman and a young multi-racial girl accompany me, and it seems as if it’s a sort of home-coming.

First I visit a tiny apartment in a dusty, hot, sand-colored worker district. I go from room to room, seeing how the place has changed… I close the window blinds for privacy from the nosy neighbors, and check on a little girl & a crawling baby to see how they are getting along… The place is messy, but I’ve been very busy.

I tell them I’m sorry I’ve been away and left my dear friends neglected… and they are like my children, too… I’m a man who has been away working… Their mother is dead, and the babysitter needs help…

The dream shifts…

Now I’m in an older Eastern-European city, approaching a large mansion (this is the same mansion I dreamed about twice within the last week or so). I’m still with the bossy old woman and now a little boy, but now I’m female, and apparently I’m “Leslee” again…

Once again I’m going from room to room, seeing what’s changed… I have so many memories of being small, growing up here… Why did I ever leave?

Oh… I wanted to get away and help others, and also I was bored… I knew I could come back, but I didn’t intend to be away for so long…

(Now, as I’m typing the dream, I can feel Heruka’s presence… And He shows me that the intimidating gray-haired man in earlier dream was ME: before I went into the dream of Leslee’s life… That’s why I needed to hide from him in that dream!)

I wander through old rooms, it’s a long time since I visited… There is an upper-floor room filled with reminders of experiences in other lifetimes: China, Tibet, Meso-America, North America, Egypt…

…Frozen lands, desert lands, forest lands… Lifetimes as animals, people, spirits… Lifetimes filled with power and weakness… Lifetimes spent alone and with large families, isolated and with large communities…

I fondly dust off some of the items (small carved jade Buddhas) and say my temporary good-byes again, as I prepare to leave this place once more…

In this dream, now I am the gray-haired man again, rising briefly from the dream that is Leslee’s life, to pay a visit, and to remind myself and others…

This is why Leslee’s in no hurry to go back to being the gray-haired man. That life in Telos is not what I want either, except in that life I’m wealthy and have comfortable conditions (except for the bossy lady)…

Sometimes we need to learn to set boundaries and hold fast to our aspirations in Telos, too, just like here on (surface) Earth…

In Telos there is beautiful architecture and streets of beautiful stone, lined with trees and old houses, filled with gentle people…

I’m remembering I come from a Telosian family with expectations and responsibilities… Even as leaders in a “perfect” society, we must perform roles that may become boring and tedious…

(The dream fades, and Heruka explains further, once I’m awake:)

Ascending beyond the body is the only way to escape this cycle of frustration and confusion, so we have all, at various times, agreed to try to tolerate that… Until enough of us finally agree to awaken from the dream that is Gaia (Telosian, Agarthan, or otherwise…)

Once we awaken from that dream, we will all be of the Light once more, and can rest and reflect and commune lovingly and openly again…

Once the massive shift comes, each of us will be able to decide whether we wish to begin a new series of dreams in a new world, or whether we wish to return into the light for a “while”…

There is nothing to fear because it is all truly illusory…

Our bodies and this world are a fantastic creation that we have all participated in… We have done a magnificent job of playing out our roles…

Many of us are tired of the dream, but many are still enjoying it and want to see the final outcome of the illusory “battle” between “Good” and “Evil”…

Enough of us have reached the point of exhaustion that we are about to be granted a pause in the dream… During this pause, those who wish to return to the Light will have that opportunity, and those who wish to continue to play, will be provided that option…

The re-set Game will begin once again, with a level playing field and equanimity of roles…

These days are the times in which each of us is making our own decisions about what we wish to “do” next.



(from Lhamo Dorje and Heruka Chakrasamvara)

When you develop the desire to find a fool-proof way to become as wise and happy as possible, no matter what, it helps to have some useful instructions.

That’s something you need to receive from an (apparently) external source.

We can help you with that.

What you have to do for yourself is decide how you feel about the words “no matter what”.

The importance of the quality of the instructions pales in comparison to the importance of the quality of your determination.

So We’re going to offer these instructions based on the presumption that you have gained clarity about your resolve.

It’s okay if you’ve not yet gained that clarity; reading these instructions may help polarize your views. We’re simply explaining that we’re offering instructions, not a sales pitch.

Please consider that opinions and advice differ from useful

1. Prepare your mind.

Excellent. We just covered about 50 pages of a classic Buddhist text.

2. Appreciate: to *what* are you opening your mind?

This step accepts that you offer a certainly deep level of trust to “another”, who will guide you safely through uncharted waters to Enlightenment.

This position implies and requires your humility.

Here lies the apparent contradiction.

This world experience offers many types of Teachings. Most of them, as currently presented, first set a stage upon which you, as a human being, are in dire need of “recognizing” your supposed failures and short-comings. This presentation pervades so deeply that most people don’t recognize it as a subtle means of stunting your progress while generating the illusion that this self-deflating view will lead you to success.

Please open your mind to the possibility that you are an Enlightened Being who appears, here and now, to enjoy the game of re-attaining Enlightenment. You might – once again – lose the “Boss Fight”… But you already know that every time you engage in a do-over, you bring your previous practice sessions into the arena.

For now, let’s simply say that you open your mind to the possibility that “another being”, one that’s “out there”, offers you some cheat codes to leveling up.

It’s smarter than slogging through all the levels ignorantly…

And you can always start over.

It does, however, go better if you start out from a launch-pad of kindness to others.

We just covered another 37 pages, and hopefully you still feel like you have a chance at successfully accomplishing your goal.

Let’s breeze through another ten pages.

3. It helps to accept that the answers you seek lie outside of science and your senses.

Try to remember your dreams, and pay attention to them. Meditate. Calm your mind, even if you have to drink a beer first, and even if you fall asleep in the process.

Pay attention to what you “think” you see in your peripheral vision. Remember that what you “see” with your eyes is limited by the function of rods and cones.

Listen to what you cannot possibly be “really” hearing as you fall asleep. Remember that what you “hear” with your ears is limited by hairs and wax and thin, fragile membranes of skin.

Trust your intuition.

The “Folks” who have already done what you’re trying to do… Well, They just don’t really “live” here any more, so They use rather unconventional
methods to get your attention.

Please open your mind to this possibility as well.

Let’s cover another 21 pages.

4. Things are not what they seem. They are both more, and less, than what people typically presume.

Try reading “Why Are There Two Of Us?”, and see if it leads you to look at things differently.

5. Sanskrit words have transformative capability.

Words like “Vajrayana” and “Nirvana” sound intensely appealing, for good reason.

The world first arises from sound. From sound arises Light, and then Awareness, and then Form.

All the world arises from Emptiness, and we have all (“You” have all…) attained “Enlightenment” many times. It’s just really challenging to accomplish with only three dimensions, because you’re limited by your senses, and they deceive regularly.

Trickster density drags you down again and again.

Get over it, and get out of here.

Read Hurtling Towards Enlightenment, and “Fake It ‘Till You Make It”.

You’re not faking it, you’re remembering.

It’s time to remember.



(from Lhamo Dorje)

When Atisha traveled to Tibet, Buddhism went deep into the wilds of Bon territory.

The karmic inclinations of Tibetans draw them to mysticism, superstition, ritual, and violence.

This is totally irrelevant to Enlightenment.

However, people learn best when given lessons couched in imagery and terminology that feel familiar to them. Consider how paganism was co-opted by Christianity.

Atisha knew it was essential to deal with these conditions of Tibetan karma when He took on the transmission of Dharma to his new students. Therefore, Lamp for the Path of Enlightenment was written expressly for Tibetans, to be understood within the constraints of their particular situation.

For Western Buddhists of a particular level of understanding, several authors/teachers/lamas have re-presented these Teachings in a more contemporary fashion. Some of them present faithful translations, some offer modern adaptations, and some sincerely examine the core points of Atisha’s transmissions.

However, none illuminate in a way that resonates with people to whom Buddhism is an alien construct, or those for whom shadowy recollections from previous-lives whisper,

“Stay away… you’ve been there before… you don’t want to go back…”

In this LAMP series (Lamrim And More Profound), We will start with a clean slate, straight from the Dharmakaya, and offer a fresh perspective on the story of Buddhism that this world has been fed since the time of Buddha Shakyamuni.

Let’s just say We’re getting a jump on December 21, 2012.

Get ready for the New World.


(from Buddha Heruka)

The sub-conscious mind always knows what to do; the conscious mind interferes by introducing the  “problem-solving” mind into the process.

The problem-solving mind actually muddies the waters by putting forth options, possible outcomes, various points of view, and expectations.

It’s fine for the conscious mind to gather these considerations at the beginning of the decision-making process, but once they are gathered the sub-conscious mind never forgets them, so they just need to be stored and ignored, as occurs naturally. Then the sub-conscious mind can transmit the best solution.


(from Buddha Heruka)

“Akashic Records”

is a term given by a channeler years ago because he could relate to that term.


“Akasha” refers to a king who lived many aeons ago. This channeler had a special connection to that King, so the channeler understood what he was accessing to be like a library or collection of all that King’s realizations.

That king actually became, when he attained Enlightenment, Buddha Akshobya, who is the head of one of the five Buddha families.