I began compiling the material in this blog when I was born. But I got distracted. Or something.
I’ve traveled several paths of spiritual searching; they’ve mostly flowed in fits and starts. I often gave up on my spiritual quests whenever I found that the teachers could no longer answer – to my satisfaction – all my questions. Or when the teachers appeared a little too “human”. I’m not bragging about that, by the way – it’s more of a confession.
For me, spiritual confusion led to immersion in what many people consider the important things in life – clamoring for a sense of security… certainty. Sometimes promises (or vows) and paychecks have more in common with each other than we like to admit. Both offer an illusion of certainty that entices… and can change on a whim.
I spent years banking on promises and paychecks. It looked like what everyone else was doing… Fifty million worker bees can’t be wrong…
In 2000, the surprises and disruptions to that search for stability began to escalate. The cascade began with a powerful spiritual dream, then led to a divorce. Then came an autism diagnosis for my son, and other synchronicities and surprises too unbelievable and numerous to mention here. It was all I could manage to cope, week to week.
In 2001, shortly after 9/11/2001, I discovered Buddhism, and felt the terrific relief of feeling reconnected with a host of long-lost invisible friends.
My spiritual quest continued then, sometimes in spite of my efforts to negotiate the terrain of returning to Atlanta, working full-time, caring for my son, and taking on the vows of being a nun. The lines between “success” and “failure” blurred constantly. A gradual crescendo built up over the span of a decade, culminating in a job loss that dramatically threw my family once more into the hazy mists of uncertainty.
Then the spring of 2010 arrived, with all its wonder and terrifying glory.
That’s when I resumed work on this material, although at the time I didn’t realize that was what was happening. I had returned my vows as a nun a couple years previously, and was trying to develop a refreshed sense of direction in my spiritual path, hoping to make a renewed and deeper connection with that joy I had felt back in 2001. The student was finally ready for the Teacher.
From my point of view, the material on this site comes from my Inner Guides. Or a special corner of my intuition… or something else. Just about any description suits me fine. I just know that my job is to put this material “out there” for others. Ironic, considering that part of the material explains how there is no “out there”…
Please test it for yourself and see if it works.
born: mobile, al, usa… jan 4, 1962. opposite the globe from the monastic regions of tibet.
grew up: more or less in birmingham, al, usa… just a little bit of a southern accent.
schools: public schools, georgia tech architecture, 1985… france for a year.
work: lots of it for a long time… retail design… it’s only temporary. gets bizarre when you take it too seriously. nun: 4.5 yrs.
family: yes, we still speak to one another, amidst a cacophony of personalities… i have a son; there is no cacophony there.
bliss: yes. never forget… but when the inevitable occurs, it can always be recalled.
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So happy to have gotten connected with your blog!! I am brand new to the blogging world, I usually only write for myself. But I have been inspired to share my spiritual revelations, and it’s very encouraging and inspiring to find others more experienced in that which I am seeking.
The more the merrier!
I don’t want to wait until I reach enlightenment, it will happen when it will happen. Until then I follow my path set out by Sogyal Rinpoche, my spiritual friend.
It is inspiring to see what you have done and what you are doing.
Thanks for that!
(mind if I would quote you sometimes on my blog? By the way please feel free to take from my blog whatever is useful for you)
see you soon!
Hello, François! Please feel free to re-blog anything you like! Rinpoche is a wonderful being. :) thank you for the connection and invitation! Namaste, Leslee
That’s a lot of events in one lifetime! I feel like I havent done much at all in comparison lol! thank you for following my blog :)
Hi, Andy! So nice to meet you! I look forward to catching up in the next few days – Cheers! : )
Nice to meet you too! looking forward to reading more posts from you :) :)
Thanks for connecting me to your wonderfully diverse blog, Andy!
I’ve always wanted to attain enlightenment and I don’t even know how and when to start. My life as most of us are, is a series of ups and downs and sometimes bearable, depressing and just too much that I can handle. So I try very much to just survive and try very much to attain what you people call enlightenment. But so far, I can’t seem to find it no matter how hard I try. They say that you mustn’t try too hard. I did that too. It’s still not working or maybe I am just too confused now. Thank you though, since reading your various posts I seem to understand some but not all. I don’t know how to get there but I just know I won’t stop looking…
Hi, GW, so glad to meet you, and thanks for stopping by! I’ll respond more in depth soon, but in my experience, that determination not to give up is the key ;-D Namaste & ttys, Leslee
You rock, soul sister, thank you for sharing your journey. At your side in heart and spirit from afar,
Aw, that’s so cool, to have your company!!! I finally took some time to read some of you recent posts today – I enjoyed them sooooo much! Thanks for appearing! :)
I’m soooo glad we connected! You rock too, honey, never doubt it!
Leslie, much in the way of synchronicity, thank you so much for your comment on my blog! 2012indyinfo is my hangout, haven’t found your email yet but will keep looking :-) Namaste
BTW both my sons diagnosed as yours was. I see them as our teachers, and I have learned so much as their student. It is a tricky flow to get into, but once there the universe opens wide… Enjoy the ride my friend!
I also feel they are here to change the world. With this in mind, they are a gift to humanity from the creator. And you delivered this gift. Perhaps you were one of the three wise men bearing gifts from long ago, eh? ;-)
Wow, talk about amazing synchronicities! I so look forward to connecting more – trying to get one more post done before I turn into a pumpkin, but I’ll be checking out your links soon! My email is firstname.lastname@example.org. Have a great night! Leslee
I’m so glad to see you writing and creating more art. :)
Thank you so much, dear friend! Work and other parts of life have been incredibly busy, but I’m trying to get back to WordPress when I can. I hope you’re well!